This is a wonderful truth, as some of you know and others don’t, you are the toughest opponent you will ever face. When you know yourself you can push past the belief that your dreams are not possible.
You may think it’s something out there or someone else that is keeping you down, someone else who says you cant do it. But the truth is that you believe that person, without your belief that outside experience has no power over you. Know yourself, change your belief and take charge of your dreams… take charge of your life.
The night was dark, an eerie dark that haunted the streets of Iraq. Silence - the silence lodged in the fibers of our being – paid me a visit on those streets. This silence didn’t come alone, oh no, it demanded a dramatic entrance.
I was watching the road manifest from the green depths of my night vision goggles when something happened. I didn’t see a flash or hear an ear deafening blast, I simply felt silence. An overwhelming silence, stillness, maybe even peace. At that moment, I was home, more so than ever before. It felt as if I was outside the restriction of time, I knew something had gone wrong but I wanted the silence to last forever. I came back to this reality amidst confusion, smoke, and screaming. A long painful journey followed.
We made it back to our dusty quarters where the others and I received thorough examination. I was one of the lucky ones. I had a mild concussion and a few scarps and bruises. Even still, I had to stay awake for a couple hours to be sure everything was in order. I sat waiting, terrified. Not terrified of war, but terrified of what my mind might torture me with next. No matter how hard I tried to convince myself I was a tough rugged man ready to visit violence on my enemies, all I could do was weep, afraid, afraid of the possibility of peace, and at the same time afraid I would never experience it again.
I spent years drowning this experience with booze, and pills, whatever it took. I never stayed alone with my thoughts unless I was properly medicated. Finally, rock bottom found me in a worn out hotel in North Carolina. I was training for a job I did not want and trying to keep it all together. What, I asked myself, was I trying to keep together, a web of lies, hidden addiction? Enough! My blessings showed themselves as an empty checking account. Not having enough money to pay for my addiction, I began to squirm. Something happened, Instead of doing something drastic to get the money for another bottle, I faced my fear. I was finally ready to face my thoughts and demand they stand still and let me engage the silence again.
Years after this unexplainable silence abruptly introduced itself to me, I finally stood ready to face it. I began to look for ways to examine war’s profound silence, the peaceful feeling from that blast. This was not an easy task; revelation did not bestow itself upon me in that instant as I hoped it would. After some trial and error, I concluded meditation was the right place to start. That was two years ago and my life has changed tremendously since.
To truly experience silence, no matter how short, is to experience peace. I believe silence is the basis of everything good, the further we distance ourselves from it the more difficult it is to feel and understand peace and love. I meditate every day and experience this silence in every moment that I can.
Now, I am happy every day. I wake up every morning excited for the tremendous gifts present in my life and for the endless opportunities that lay before me. I am always looking for silence and I find it now, more often than I ever could have imagined.
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Are you frustrated with work or a relationship? I found an affirmation that has helped me and I am sure it will help you…
In 2013 I was frustrated with my work circumstances. I know I just said frustrated but I really meant furious. I often pulled into the parking lot, got out of my car, faced the building then lost the motivation needed to go in and start the day. I would find myself circling my car arguing with the voice in my head that insisted I needed the paycheck. Finally the voice would win and I would go in and drone through another day. This was not the first job I felt this way about, I finally realized I had to change not the job.
I decided to use affirmations to help find peace in this situation. I wrote down this affirmation: I will show unconditional love to all people and circumstances that come into my life today and every day. I wrote it over and over until I could easily recite it from memory. Then I cut out the affirmation, folded it up and put it in my pocket. Every time it came to mind I recited the affirmation silently to myself and every time I had a chance to sit down and pull it out I would read it a couple of times. It did not take long before the thought, “how can I show unconditional love here,” came up when I was in a challenging situation. I also condensed the affirmation to the phrase, Unconditional love, and said it over and over in my head as I fell asleep each night.
Pretty soon, every day became an opportunity to see if I could find some happiness in a fuming situation or notice the seeds of joy in a typically angry person. This is a dramatic difference from what was constantly going through my head before. These changes in my thought process has made some remarkable changes in my life. The changes have continued to come and in many instances it was not what I expected.
At first I the only changes were in my own thoughts and that alone made a profound difference. Then something strange occurred, a few seemingly negative things happened around the office. My best friend and car pool buddy found a new job and moved on. In fact three of the guys I was a good friends with moved out of the office. With everything going on I received a promotion and got a chance to pick my own team. As it turns out, I ended up with a team that is lot more positive and they are very open minded towards my philosophical interests. Months after all this when I was doing some reflecting, which is very important by the way, I realized I had received a promotion that came with a raise and an additional performance based raise since I started the affirmation. Plus, it was easier to keep a positive mental attitude in my everyday activities. There are many other things that have improved but I think you get the point.
This affirmation didn’t make me rich, I don’t have one of those stories that end with a million dollar deal, but it has made me much happier. It’s also been a great foundation for advancing towards other goals, not to mention my goals are far less dependent on money and more focused on happiness. This sheds a new light on the phrase, “enjoy the journey.” I don’t want to be stuck at this job forever but it is much easier to have fun while I am working on new avenues and rediscovering myself.